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Saturday, June 5, 2010

it's been awhile since my last post.
didn't really have the time to blog for it.
too many things happened and i don't even know how to list it out all.
i guess my blog had already turn to a ruin. :D
lets just talk about recent stuff will do.

i had been re-join back cathay cinesnax company but different branch.
now i'm currently working at cwp cathay for part time.
the things here are same like before when i'm in amk cathay,
only the management and some colleagues are so ~~great~~ to be friends with. -.-

i just receive a letter from CNPB asking me to apply for medical checkup few days ago.
look like i'm really going ns soon enough which will make me feel happier last time but not now.
although its still long till i get in there,
i kinda miss me wifey.
i really hope she will be okay when i'm inside the camp.
how i hope when i'm in there my brothers are already book out and look after her.

time fled,
sooner or later i'm gonna one more older again.
i'm not the kid that can still behave like last time where theres no worries for future.
it's really two different world.
i really hope everything will be fine for her.
next year will be her major exam and i'm in camp,
i'm start to think what can i do when she feeling down when road got rough and i can't even help her?
i know she's independent enough, but after all when she wanted to rest i wish i could be the one who beside her pulling her up to the pathway again.

as for my two little brothers,
seem like kang grown up a lot. :)
he know how to think for himself,
he not the person who need me guide for him for every single thing anymore.

this few days keep on worry about cheng's stuff.
i know he got a lot of friends out there who really care for him.
but i want him to learn more from me.
that's what i should and i need to do.
sorry if my characteristc is not what u wanted to become.
i just want u to know everything i done for u till now are because of you.
you are the one i can't put down right now.
i know i owe u a lot a lot,
from financial difficulty to NEA.
but at least let me do the things right.
let me show to u that your big bro are not useless at all.

i been trying very hard to plan training and organise it and collecting fund from every members from the team of FHD and my mafia fellows.
i know its been a hard time for all of you.
sorry if i reckless anyone of you,
especially june and chervin.
i never want to withdraw u out of the team is because,
i believe that when i can start it out when i was a noob so does all of you,
if i'm the example u all wanted to be.
just start it right and never fail to ask opinion from me,
i will be always there guilding all of you.

i'm sorry for the fund i collected from u all every week when theres training.
the meaning of collecting the fund is for future we can organise a party which cost a bomb we could use that to cover up so that we won't have trouble for that.
this coming nov will be our FHD inofficial one year anniversary.
i never oraganise such a huge team before,
although we are not official team, we are not the best players in locals.
but still, you are the best. :)
more details will be send when the time is up.

alright, i'm kinda tired actually. :/
never sleep for two days.
it had already reach my limit.
baby although the date today didn't turn out smoothly as we plan,
but as long i'm with u everything are fine to me. :)
there are still lot more time for us.
i love u alright? <3
i shall just stop here now. (hopefully most of them won't go see my blog, paiseh) :x

5:52 AM

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